Darkness

I think about more than I speak but I forget,
Holding back thoughts makes me regret,
2 say the thoughts that I had kept,
From the world,
Now I feel lost lyke I missed a step,
Stumbling thru my life with 2 eyes but blind,
Faster than the wind watches for the win but I'm running out of time,
Waiting for success 2 kall my number but no sure if I'm in the ryght line,
Not even sure it has the ryght number,
Friends passing me by seems 2 make me wonder,
How many more winters I'll see how many summers,
Missed breaks mistakes all stupid blunders,
Got so many problems I just need 2 eradicate,
Let alcohol loose for juice kuhz I need that concentrate,
Everyone wants 2 say they wanna help but never participate,
Just need 2 settle down success will come around then celebrate,
I wake up 2 defeat lyke I'm sleeping head-to-toe with the enemy,
Mayne mayne this darkness in my heart is killin me,
No lights on in my brain if you feeling me,
Puppet for chaos and all for pay-offs who is wielding me,
Doubters haters friends none of them believing me,
Waiting waiting but the ride for success keeps leaving me,
Now I'm stuck here waiting for failure 2 retrieve me,
If I was knocking at your door would you receive me,
Or would you not answer like you not home deceive me,
The world doesn't need me, appealing me,
Naw I'm a joker in poker no dealing me,
Mayne I told yall that this darkness was killin me...
Ghastly